I Will Survive — Cancer house

That song was playing in background when they did my second trans abdominal port on Monday Octobrr 9. The other song that played was “staying alive.” hah! The staff kept saying we don’t often do these procedures— which didn’t instill confidence. But don’t know if music was random or what…

Mostly different crew. But best of all they got my iv for anesthesia in one stick. My arm is black & blue. At home I woke up before procedure with terrible, terrible UTI so i started downing antibiotics. By 8, I wasn’t peeing in pain every 5 minutes or less—even brought a depends which I didn’t need.The antibiotics kicked in so I was just fine on operating table.

Whole procedure lasted 2 hours, but I was there from 8 to 12:30. They ran a catheter down my femoral groin area to insert dye (i think). catherized my femoral artery which made it hard to walk for a day or two. And then they ran tube from the abdomen to my back to my vena cava. I was mostly awake (fentanyl and versaed) and don’t prefer being awake but could tell them if I felt pain. i spoke up several times but pain wasn’t bad. I left feeling woozy tho and they suggested I lay flat in my back to make sure my femoral artery stopped bleeding. After an hour they brought me a wheel chair bc i had to rush off to radiology, (my 6th of 20). Leg still weak and hurt like hell. . Dan pushed me in wheel chair to radiology after we parked. What a man!

Had chemo yesterday. Still woozy. I like my new. doc—Dr. Fung. He wants me to do a pet scan in a few weeks and another MRI of brain since this this cancer tends to go to the brain. Keeping trodelvy dose at 85% to see if my neck skin mets melt away with chemo and radiation.

So I’m singing with Gloria Gaynor. The lines in bold are most meaningful to me. regarding other photos, I couldn’t get all the black and blue spots on arm. Thanks always for your support in so many ways. 😘💕💕💕

At first I was afraid, I was petrified
Kept thinking I could never live without you by my side
But then I spent so many nights thinking how you did me wrong
And I grew strong
And I learned how to get along
And so you're back
From outer space
I just walked in to find you here with that sad look upon your face
I should have changed that stupid lock, I should have made you leave your key
If I'd known for just one second you'd be back to bother me

Go on now, go, walk out the door
Just turn around now
'Cause you're not welcome anymore
Weren't you the one who tried to hurt me with goodbye?
You think I'd crumble?
You think I'd lay down and die?

Oh no, not I, I will survive
Oh, as long as I know how to love, I know I'll stay alive
I've got all my life to live
And I've got all my love to give and I'll survive
I will survive, hey, hey

It took all the strength I had not to fall apart
Kept trying hard to mend the pieces of my broken heart
And I spent oh-so many nights just feeling sorry for myself
I used to cry
But now I hold my head up high and you see me
Somebody new
I'm not that chained-up little person still in love with you
And so you felt like dropping in and just expect me to be free
Well, now I'm saving all my lovin' for someone who's loving me

Go on now, go, walk out the door
Just turn around now
'Cause you're not welcome anymore
Weren't you the one who tried to break me with goodbye?
You think I'd crumble?
You think I'd lay down and die?

Oh no, not I, I will survive
Oh, as long as I know At first I was afraid, I was petrified
Kept thinking I could never live without you by my side
But then I spent so many nights thinking how you did me wrong
And I grew strong
And I learned how to get along
And so you're back
From outer space
I just walked in to find you here with that sad look upon your face
I should have changed that stupid lock, I should have made you leave your key
If I'd known for just one second you'd be back to bother me

Go on now, go, walk out the door
Just turn around now
'Cause you're not welcome anymore
Weren't you the one who tried to hurt me with goodbye?
You think I'd crumble?
You think I'd lay down and die?

Oh no, not I, I will survive
Oh, as long as I know how to love, I know I'll stay alive
I've got all my life to live
And I've got all my love to give and I'll survive
I will survive, hey, hey

Go on now, go, walk out the door
Just turn around now
'Cause you're not welcome anymore
Weren't you the one who tried to break me with goodbye?
You think I'd crumble?
You think I'd lay down and die?

Oh no, not I, I will survive
Oh, as long as I know how to love, I know I'll stay alive
I've got all my life to live
And I've got all my love to give and I'll survive
I will survive

Oh
Go on now, go, walk out the door
Just turn around now
'Cause you're not welcome anymore
Weren't you the one who tried to break me with goodbye?
You think I'd crumble?
You think I'd lay down and die?

Oh no, not I, I will survive
Oh, as long as I know how to love, I know I'll stay alive

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